On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from February 2009.

I am having a hard night tonight. Our little guy in Haiti, Keanan, is in the hospital. He has a really bad infection in his foot. It’s a bacterial infection, probably staph or something like it. Bacterial infections can be nasty to battle even in the US. Could you please pray that the antibiotics work quickly, and that the infection will go away for good and not require any further intervention? He was admitted on Thursday, and I’ve been trying to take it in stride. But tonight it just kind of hit me. I’ve never had a child in the hospital, and it’s really difficult not to be consumed with worry. It is so hard to be away from him while he is hurting so much. Thankfully, he is in a good hospital, and our orphanage is taking amazing care of him. They have a nanny with him 24/7 and they are keeping me updated every day.

Mark and Jafta will be visiting March 12-17. We planned the trip before Keanan got sick. I would really love for them to have a great bonding time together, so I am praying he heals quickly and is back to his regular self soon. I’ve already been feeling really down about not being able to visit myself. Now I’m wishing even more that I could fly out there. It’s tough to feel so powerless as a mom. I know he is in good hands, but I wish I was the one holding him tonight.

I think it’s time for me to sit down and have a good, hormone-fueled cry.