Life Lately

 

Wonder twin powers: activate!

“If no one draws something going into my mouth are we even friends.” – Claire

Just dropped a gaggle of kids off at a church event in my minivan so I guess I really have become my own mother.

I love giving books as much as I love getting them.

This balm for the working mom is off to a friend who inspires me to be better through her vulnerability and tenacity. 😘

It’s the most wonderful time of the year! Time to post awkward videos of my kids learning irrelevant dances in formalwear! #cotilion

BUSTING THE BEAUTY MYTHS WITH DR. SARAH VILLAFRANCO: SELFIE, EPISODE 50

Is Botox safe to use? Does dairy truly cause acne and do you *really* need to wash your face every day? These questions plus a great discussion on embracing aging with Dr. Sarah Villafranco, a former ER doc turned artisan soap maker. (The most gorgeous soaps you’ve ever seen, by the way.) Also, Kristen ponders trying fillers for her furrowed brow, and Sarah discusses her new at-home laser tool.
In this episode we talked about:

Osmia Organics

SmoothSkin Gold IPL Permanent Hair Reduction Laser

Cosmeticare

Silicone Wine Glasses

Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist

Suki Skincare Line

Essentialism by Greg McKeown

Beauty Heroes

 

Photo by kevin laminto on Unsplash

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Friday Finds: Denim

  1. Meychin Adjustable Denim Jean Kitchen Apron
  2. Levi’s Men’s Standard Barstow Denim Western, Dark Rinse Shirt
  3. Lee Women’s Modern Series Holden Denim Jacket
  4. Mid-Century Modern Woven Fabric Upholstered Accent Dining Chairs 
  5. Household 100% Cotton Duvet Cover King
  6. Maika Recycled Canvas Bucket, Indigo Denim
  7. Nautica Seaward Denim European Sham
  8. Kate Spade New York Women’s Lilly Sneaker
  9. Rivet Revolve Modern Accent Chair, Denim Rivet

 

 

 

 

Mommy, I want to fix my skin so it will be white || On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from August 2008.

On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from August 2008.

 

Ohhh . . . my heart is hurting tonight. This evening Jafta opened up about how he feels being the only brown person in our family, and it was devastating. He’s really never commented about it before, and we try to keep the dialogue open. But tonight he said the following,

Mommy, I don’t like my brown skin. I want it to be white.

I want to take my skin off.
I don’t want this hair. I want hair like daddy.
I want to fix my skin so it will be white.
I want my skin to look like yours and daddy’s and India’s

and then, worst of all:

I just don’t like myself

I tried so hard to listen, to keep from overreacting, to be empathetic, and to tell him how much I love him and his brown skin. But it was obvious that he has a lot of pent up feelings about this. I’ve wondered . . . especially watching the way he interacts with other kids sometimes. But tonight he left no question.

I am totally torn up about it. What do I do? We’ve read the books and followed the advice . . . but I’m just so sad because I know that there is inevitable grief in adoption, and this is a part of his life experience as a transracial adoptee. I WANT TO FIX IT. I want to protect him from pain. I don’t want him to be sad. I want him to feel special and loved and secure and confident.

Mark and I talked about it for a long time tonight. Well, Mark talked. I sobbed and made word-like noises through my ugly-cry face. We were evaluating what we could do differently, if we’ve made a mis-step somewhere. We considered again, if we need to move to Austin, or Haiti, or a place with more diversity than Orange County. But we were mostly just hurting for our little boy.

It’s so discouraging, too, that we want so badly to give him a sibling who looks like him. I wish so much that our Haiti adoption was not taking so long. I hate that he feels so alone in our family. I wish that he had just one face to identify with in our home.

UGGGHHHHH. Feeling sad tonight, and wishing I knew the answer.

Wednesday’s Child: Joebert

Every Wednesday I feature a child recently highlighted by a local Wednesday’s Child newscast to share the stories of children from around the country who are waiting for a family. My hope is that this can broaden exposure for the children highlighted, but also serve as a reminder that these children represent thousands of children currently in the foster-care system. Perhaps their stories will inspire you to consider opening your home to a child needing a family. For more information and to learn about other waiting children, visit AdoptUsKids

 

 

Life Lately

She woke up and decided today was going to be a “rock star day.” 🤘

 

Okay friends. I need to pick a backsplash for my kitchen. I’m torn between a geometric black and white, or adding a splash of blue. Scroll through and tell me which one you think would look best … (oh and the yellow chairs are going away – going with simple white chairs)

I went to the ENT today and had this apparatus used on me, which looked like a torture device from 1958. Prognosis: enlarged turbinates. Has anyone else dealt with this before? Tell me everything. I’ve been living with compacted sinuses and post-nasal drip pretty much constantly and I’m over it. Today he shot a syringe of steroid into both sides (fun!) but mentioned a balloon technique if that doesn’t work. Self care: not all massages and pedicures.

These are my “get shit done” overalls. I wear them most weekends when working on the house. India decided she needed some as well. She sewed the patches on herself. Today’s project: ripping the flooring out of the Backhouse and cleaning out the garage.

 

A little retrospective of the Howerton kids through the years (swipe left). Sunrise sunset and all that. 😥

Back-to-school means new beginnings. It’s a fresh start with limitless possibilities.

A surge of freedom and ideas and goals. I guess it’s cool for the kids, too.

 

LIGHT SENSITIVITY, INDIGESTION WOES, G-STRING JUDGEMENT, AND JESSICA TURNER ON LOSING THE MOM GUILT | SELFIE EPISODE 49

Kristen and Sarah talk about their shared sensitivity to bad lighting, their indigestion woes, and their hot take on the proliferation of g-strings at the beach this summer. They also interview Jessica Turner, author of the new book Stretched Too Thin, on self-care for working moms and how to kick the mom guilt.

In this episode we talk about:

The Highly Sensitive Person

Tara Whitney Photography

FODMAP’s

Thrive Market  (get $25 off your first order through this link)

Gin Gin Ginger candies

Tessemae’s Salad Dressing (Organic Zesty Ranch)

Sleeping at Last Podcast enneagram series

An American Marriage

The Heart’s Invisible Furies: A Novel

North of Normal

 

What’s Best for You vs. What’s Best for Me || On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from September 2008.

On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from September 2008.

Jafta is starting preschool on Monday. Over the years, I’ve been witness to many a preschool conversations by my friends with older kids. I’ve always listened and glibly thought, come on, it’s just preschool. Ah, sweet pre-parent naivete.

So now that it’s my turn, I’ve been agonizing over where to send Jafta to preschool since April. I kind of had a list of criteria that I was looking for in a preschool:

1. it’s realy, really close to my house

2. he can eat lunch there so I can run more errands

3. it doesnt’ start before 9am so I can sleep a bit later

4. it has a two-day option so we can spend less money

5. it has a Tues/Thurs option so that time in childcare preschool is not wasted on a day daddy is home to help with the kids

Wow. Is this the most self-indulgent list you have ever seen? Me, me, me. What’s best for me.

But over the last few months I’ve been convicted that perhaps what is best for me is not what is best for Jafta.

See, there is this amazing preschool that many of my friends recommended. That have a great acadmic prep. The teachers are insanely nurturing and make every kid feel like a star. They do worship every morning. His best friend is going and could be in his class. Jafta went to VBS there and loved it. All signs were pointing to this being a great option for Jafta, but I fought it tooth and nail.

But he would have to go Mon/Wed/Fri, two of which are mornings he hangs with Mark. But it starts really, really early. But it has no lunch option. But it’s more expensive. But it’s kind of a hike. But I want to do things on Tuesday and Thursday while he’s in school. But Ali and I can have meetings if our kids are on the same schedule . . .

Wah Wah Wah.

So I paid a hefty deposit and first month’s dues for a different preschool that fit my own needs. And last week, Jafta starting begging to go to his best friend’s school. And Mark started calling me out for why he wasn’t. And I started feeling really, really guilty.

So I sucked up my pride and selfishness, said goodbye to the money blown on mommy’s choice, and got him a spot in Ryder’s class at Lil’ Lighthouse Preschool. Looks like we’ll be waking at the crack of dawn on Mon/Wed/Fri.

 

Wednesday’s Child: Nathan

Every Wednesday I feature a child recently highlighted by a local Wednesday’s Child newscast to share the stories of children from around the country who are waiting for a family. My hope is that this can broaden exposure for the children highlighted, but also serve as a reminder that these children represent thousands of children currently in the foster-care system. Perhaps their stories will inspire you to consider opening your home to a child needing a family. For more information and to learn about other waiting children, visit AdoptUsKids.