Motherhood and Loss
On Thursdays I post from the vault. This post is from November 2007. I've just had another miscarriage. This is number 5 or 6 . . . hard to keep track. It followed the usual course: late period, positive test, but low hormone levels, followed by a quiet week of me getting my hopes up, and then bleeding, cramping, confirmation, and tears. This is my first miscarriage since adopting Jafta. I was able to carry India to term (this latest miscarriage is just another reminder of what a miracle . . .
Motherhood and Loss
On Thursday's I post from the Vault. This post is from November 2007 I've just had another miscarriage. This is number 5 or 6 . . . hard to keep track. It followed the usual course: late period, positive test, but low hormone levels, followed by a quiet week of me getting my hopes up, and then bleeding, cramping, confirmation, and tears. This is my first miscarriage since adopting Jafta. I was able to carry India to term (this latest miscarriage is just another reminder of what a miracle . . .
Just get pregnant, then you’ll adopt
Most women who have any sort of fertility issues have heard this statement before:"Just adopt, and then you'll get pregnant."I get this one a lot. Especially since it pretty much happened that way. And now here we are, adopting and expecting again, too. So I get why people say it. It's one of those things people just kind of say. A conversation piece, I guess.Now, if you are reading this and you've said this to me, don't worry. You are not alone or a bad person. Someone says this to me a couple . . .
Two Pink Lines
Yep, that's right. I'm feeling nauseous, tired, and yucky, and it's not giardia this time! We are excited, nervous, elated, scared, freaked, and most of all . . . shocked. In case you don't know my history, this is my 7th pregnancy. I have two kids, and only one came out of my own va-jay-jay. So if you do the math, you can see that most of my pregnancies have not had happy endings.I have a condition that the medical community refers to as "recurrent spontaneous abortion". Now this title . . .
Motherhood and Loss
I've just had another miscarriage. This is number 5 or 6 . . . hard to keep track. It followed the usual course: late period, positive test, but low hormone levels, followed by a quiet week of me getting my hopes up, and then bleeding, cramping, confirmation, and tears.This is my first miscarriage since adopting Jafta. I was able to carry India to term (this latest miscarriage is just another reminder of what a miracle that was). I am still devastated, but I am finding the experience very . . .
India is a year old!
I can't believe my baby is one! I feel like I was just pregnant. We had a great party in our backyard. I served brunch (cheapest option), we got a bouncehouse for the older kids and had a friend lead a sing-a-long. Cute, simple, easy, fun. Yay!But after the party I felt SO sad. I can't believe she will soon be a toddler. It is horrible to say, but I wish she would stay a baby forever! I know that it is bringing up old infertility feelings, and the fact that I may never have another baby. Not to . . .
About Me
Hi. I'm Kristen. I am a mom, wife, family therapist, writer, book nerd, musical theater fanatic and Jon Stewart stalker (at least that's what the restraining order says). Blogging is my own little form of therapy . . . and it's much cheaper per hour.If you are looking for a blog with great ideas for kids, amazing craft inspiration, scrapbooking help, and stunning photography, then AWESOME. There are a lot of those blogs out there. You should go find them.Around here, you will find some . . .
My Journey to Parenting
I met my husband Mark during freshman orientation at bible college. We started dating my sophomore year, and we got married right before I graduated. We wanted to wait for a few years before starting our family. We went to grad school, traveled Europe, and tried to get in some quality time together. We kept pushing back trying to have a baby, waiting until we felt like it was the perfect time. Little did we know it would be years after that before we finally became parents.We started trying . . .
Changing Direction
We had our final appointment with my fertility doctor on Friday to discuss the implications that we have now had a third miscarriage. Bottom line, the doctor did not give us a lot of hope. In his opinion, the doctor thinks that there is a 70-100% chance that we will miscarry again with every subsequent pregnancy. (I like how the 100% was thrown in there as an option). Ultimately, we have had every test known to man, and because everything with both of us individually is working as it should, the . . .
The Bottom Line
We had our final appointment with my fertility doctor on Friday to discuss the implications that we have now had a third miscarriage. I hate that I'm telling this news, but it's technical, complicated, and confusing, and I'd prefer to deliver the details this way, so forgive me. It's not that I don't want to talk about it - I'd just rather give you the facts this way because it's so hard to explain.Bottom line, the doctor did not give us a lot of hope. In his opinion, the doctor thinks that . . .